Tick-Tock

I’d say the hardest part of this journey now is weariness.  I’ve completed my first round of four new chemotherapy treatments. One down with 3 to go with 3 week intervals between each one. It generally takes 3 weeks for a body to recover enough to undergo another treatment. Yes, these chemical cocktails are strong. Although I am tolerating these treatments very well and tend to feel like myself again within 5 to 7 days my blood doesn’t always correspond to how I feel and lags behind. It was a 5 week wait before I could start my new treatment plan because my body needed more recovery time from my previous treatments. 

Did I say ‘I am not a number’ last time? Hmm, I might need to reconsider that one. Numbers are everywhere: blood counts, treatment intervals, recovery time, future appointment dates.  Tick-Tock; I know that in the big picture these months of treatments will diminish but right now it feels interminable. I want to ‘Live Life Now, In the Present Every Minute’ but honestly, I keep feeling like I am in a waiting room for my life to begin again.  Patience grasshopper! The truth is…I Am living life now and I Am weary, it’s all part of the dance and this too will pass and make the sweet times all the sweeter! Thank heavens I have my beloved Janet and my inner voice to help me weather these passing storms.

The Antidote

Just as in winter there are beautiful sunny days between storms! Our motto of ‘Play Hard Now’ comes out full force on these days.  The trick is to be in the storm when we are in the storm and then when it is over…let it go! Don’t fall into reliving the misery, it just prolongs the storm. 

                                  

Spring has started to show her colors in the beautiful flowers and trees everywhere. Natural beauty is always a balm to our souls.

 

Humor and play is our favorite lifestyle. Why not! Janet and I decided we would creatively collaborate to join the Spring Bloom with a splash of color!

Staying open to being spontaneous and flexible to windows of opportunity. If we have to wait 3 weeks in between treatments why not pop home for a short respite to rehydrate! 

If all my ‘numbers’ align and the universe provides us a window to fly home, for a short spell we’ll be seeing our Maui Ohana soon!